Compliments and praises, something I just can't stand dealing with. Its something that makes me go all raging in the inside. Those sweet words don't suit me, for I, do not deserve as such. At times, I feel like smacking the head of that person or throwing dust in his/her face. Ugh, thats just how much I really abhor being praised.
Deep down, I know whats going on in my own heart. Its never been easy to fight away riya or the desire for wanting more praises after praises. Doing things not for the sake of the Mighty one, rather doing things for people to look at you as someone respected and yearning for praises.
So there. Alas! All gone the sincerity. How easily sincerity can be lost had one not been aware of it.
