Received a total of 3 news on death for 2 consecutive days. How am I supposed to feel? Honestly, I do not know anymore. I am just so tired. 2 out of 3 deaths were pertaining to losing the one and only beloved mom. So many thoughts running around my head, spinning, dancing, twirling, whirling making me feel like I'm in a daze.
I can't bear the fact of losing my own parents. I can't seem to bear the fact that I won't come home to anymore naggings, smiles from their faces, warmth from their hugs, savouring the dishes they cook, listening to them reciting the Quran. Ya Allah, its already so heart-wrenching at the thought of it. I....just...can't.........
